If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?


The many reasons y i L O V E my life right nowwwww...

























and of coss.... one of the reasons definitely includes the BELOW!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

looking thru my fotos, i realised my white bby g has been following me everywhere, sharing all my feelings n emotions

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i understand how he feels when i told him saying tat his mum's a big mouth. but siding wit his precious mum doesnt help her in anyway. he himself knoes how bitchy can his mum gets, DEN Y DUN MAKE HER SEE THE LIGHT! of cos, if someone told mi tis kind of things abt my mum, i will flared up, who dun?! so i dun blame him fer telling mi tat kind of tings, but the fact is after scolding fuck off and stuff, the fact tat HIS MUM'S A BIG MOUTH stil STANDS!!! im not being bad or sth but i cant help but to rebuke him tis! i knoe she is his mum~~ i knoe!!!

he expect mi to give him a call, ask him fer permission before calling her hse! but, when his mum wanna bitch n kaobei abt mi, did she ask fer yk's permission?! NO~~~!!

talk abt being a good mother in law in future, with such an YIM JIM attitude, which ger will wan to be her daughter in law! and yk being such a mummy's boy (everything mum's right !), which wife will tahan!!!!!! omg omg omg!!!!!!

alright, i shud stop tis ranting and stop calling her big mouth~ but but but, y cant her son see??!! juz becos his her son,den he can side her?!

and to think that i stil wanan tel yk that i wun let things between her mum n mi affect the friendship between mi n him! c~ NAIVE!!

he msg me" u said u wanna make peace wit my mum?"

HELLO~~ WHO THE FUCKING HELL WAN TO MAKE PEACE WITH SUCH A BIG MOUTH! I DUN WANNA RISK MY FAMILY JUZ IN ORDER TO MAKE PEACE WIT HER!!! I MUZ BE CRAZY!~

wat i meant was, i dun wish to affect things between mi n him after the quarrel with tat big mouth obasan~ y cant tat cow think rationally.!~!!

but anyway, i think he stil think tat his mum right and i shud hav ask fer his PERMISSION to call his hse (when his mum din even ask fer his permission to bitch abt me!). oh well, i hav lost a woodlands nite out supper khaki fer tat matters, but him, sigh...... i dun wish to talk any further, let c in the future, how he going to handle his wife n tat big mouth obasan!!!

P.S: I M STIL SO MAD ABT TAT BIG MOUTH WOMAN~ AND I DIN EVEN REGRET A SINGLE BIT FER MAKING TAT MIGHTY SACRED CALL TO HER HSE ASKING HER TO SHUT HER ARSE UP!!!!!!!!


BLEAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

a little piece of my mind before i slp.


i called yk's mum the other night and n gave her a good thrashing. fer her big mouth of saying things that shudnt have been said to my mum. yup. i hav already reached the limit fer her fucking big mouth.

if she's not going to learn it the soft way, learn from the hard way den! i dun c the need for someone whom im not close to, callng my mum telling her some crazy things den end with "do u really trust wat kaili told u?" knn. its not up to u to question my mum's trust fer mi! and face it. i knoe watever i said might offend yk, but the tot of it, really annoys and disgust me.

in the past, things between mi n zx hadnt got any better becos of her big mouth as well. but wat can i say abt tis? i mean i m at fault so i cant really blame her on wat she said.

but right now i m with another guy, wat right has she to question my mum's trust on me??! knn!

and yk actually said tat i got the guts to call his mum directly!

y not??! for such a bitch like her, y muz i succumb to her fucking nonsense? and her continuation of everything will only make things worse fer mi n my mum. talk abt how fragile mi n my mum's ties is, but cant blame after zx's everything la.

so. in the first place, i tot things are juz between tat stupid fucking auntie n me, and yk shud not be drag into the pic. but since he sees otherwise, its good to sort out everything once n fer all den!


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anyway side track abit, thank you fer ur food hor! muacks!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

twitching of left eyelid means diaster is near. gosh.!

thanks to that stupid #953, i got the shock of my life when i tot i gotta pay 89 bucks for his idiotic collar pin.! luckily uncle leonard help mi to resolve tis matter if not fer the rest of the mth i gotta open mouth and eat wind!

however, thru tis incident, i can now easily differentiate who are my frens n foes. who are the ones i can trust and who are out to do me death. brendon is so cute when he recvd the news that i m not going to pay tat money.....

Me: Park Privilege Kaili speaking how can i help?
Brendon (in his most gayish tone): Kaili!!!!
Me: Wat wat?!
Brendon (in his most gayish tone): i got good news for uuuuu
Me: abt 953 ah... ya la i knoe.. i no need to pay!
Brendon (in his most gayish tone): u super lucky lehx!!!!!!!!! he is the most difficult gst lor. u knoe hor, tat time he stil throw the sphagetti lor.... i no choice i swallow down lor.. if not i gonna black list him
Me: ya lor. i was thinking how come the hotel nv blacklist him, so hot tempered.
Brendon (in his most gayish tone): harnorrrrr but oso not up to me la. its the management, so no choice la... have to have super tender loving care lorrrr
Me: haha ok ok la.
Brendon (in his most gayish tone): Okie... byebye hor!

although tat time i felt that brendon is super gu niang n irritating, but den he can be quite cute sometimes! wahahhahha

anyway i hate working in a dog eat dog environment, but well, i guess tis is the adult environment! sigh! i hate to admit that i m naive, (i rem that time juan said tat i m naive during my poly days n i almost hack her to death). but i knoe i m naive. i wanted my workplace to be full of good peeps, not foes.

alright, sunshine after the rain ( i hope so)........

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i wan to slp!! i wish to lie on my bed forever hugging my pool of doraemons, rot there, listen to FM!! gosh its been a long timeeeeeeeeee.... oh my bed!!!!

anyway i recvd a red packet from ann. hoho, irene joanne no have!!! cos ann claimed that she will only give the first person she sees on her first day of work after the cny break!! hohohohoho~ naturally, its M E !!

i m so bored wit life. can i go travelling? sure i can provided i have bags n bags of money! yea dream on!

and my arms are itching again, imagine 50 mosquito bites or watever tat bit me! my face... gosh disfigured.

my left eyelid's twitching.. does that spell trouble? stay tune

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

its normal to feel sth missing when u c ur necklace is not on u.
u always feel that its only right for the necklace to be there, and if it disappear, u realise as though sth has gone missing and u are not urself anymore.

however, once u have taken it off, u knoe that there is more room for another new one, or rather, u can go without the necklace on u.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

posted afew pics online last nite but it cant display on my blog.

sometimes pics do speak more than words. but well.. cant help it.

i enjoyed myself last nite wit his lilies in purple and green wrapping (though the purple
wrapper turns out to be blue when i took wit my SE750) and his jack's place steak. hohoho~ dun think he's good to me, its all cos of him betting wit me the durationof journey of bus 161., so ended up he lost and owe mi a treat to jack's place steak! *cheyyyy*


was surprised that he actually bought me a bouquet cos he keep saying muz be more practical. -_-"" i love lilies, but i hate to c them wither... sighhhhhh***

i m touched that he actually took effort to plan ystd. though got severe last min changes la. but erm..... hehe thank you la.. >.< hohoho and i really really enjoyed myself!



zx slotted an anklet and a stalk of dyed purple rose (i assume its a rose) into the top of my window last nite. weilun called me juz now and told mi zx actually rushed out of camp after his book out (cos he went india few days before i think) to actually get me tat rose.

and yup, i weeped. cos i was thinking, y bother making the effort when whatever things that he has done to me, is not juz a mere purple rose can make up for.

and i weeped again, i knoe he cares, but wats the point of us quarreling even when we haven started talking?

i told weilun :can i tell him that i already gotten a bf? (i think weilun assume that i m juz saying fer the sake of saying)

he said: can, he wil go commit suicide.

thanks.


and now i m at a loss. weilun ask mi to give him a call. settled whatever that has not be settle. and zx will be at woodlands tmr night to meet upwith him.

sigh. i duno. i knoe i loathe the sight of him, even his handwritines on the card reminds mi of wat i dun wanna think of. wat can i do? wat should i do?

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

alrighty peepsss!! HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!! (yawns wats new?)

well its juz another day but since i went over to laogong n laopo's blogs they hav been wishing peeps happy valentine's day, i shall juz join in!!

ehhhh ahem* may all couples be happy n swt on this day (of cos, being happy during this day is seriously NOT ENUFF!). muz have consistency!! and to all singles out there, enjoy ur singlehood, and the right one will come by soon!!

so erm yup, took cabby to work tis morning *claimable to hotel. i m not tat rich though* and i think the cabbie is a part time fortune teller. -_-" juz a look at my face n my birth month, he can tell mi wat happened to me before! AND I SERIOUSLY MEAN IT for those who knoe wat tat big thing is. he can literally read me like an open book. wat the heck. i was super sleepy planning to take a nap in cab but ended up i was more awake than ever.

but den again, he told mi not to reveal secrets to my bf (u shud noe wat tat SECRET is all abt.). that uncle was saying, my bf shud not knoe too much of my past, as he believes that he shud love mi for who i am now, and not who i was den.... kinda true but it came abit too late though!

its very scary for a total stranger to be able to knoe wat happened to u before bla bla bla. he oso mentioned that shud i married my 1st bf, we are bound to get divorce! hahaha *LIM JINDE* heng ahhhh!! =X oopsy!!

but den again. i was quite bothered by the fact that i was being reminded by sth i dun wish to remember. sighhh but aiya.. heck la.. SHOULD MY BF IN FUTURE QUARRELED WIT ME DEN WANNA BRING OUT TAT THING TO SAY, U WATCH OUT!!!!! U HEAR ME??!?!!!!! PIECE OF SHIT!!!!

LOL. sigh but anyway........ erm.. yup thats all cos im lost for words cos i heard irene doing work in the pantry! -_-" *eh miss teo, work wit u very stress lehxxx~~~*

okkk ciaozzz!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

seriously i need a spacious nice durable bag for work. my white one's handle came out again! spoil. wtf! tats wat happened to my black colour puma bag.

can i have one decent durable bag fer work pls pls pls.



is it possible for 2 frens to go out on valentine's day? or isit not?


i duno

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

basically, i love my life recently. herherher!

been out wit daryl juz now. went orchard for shopping eat walk walk. kekeke its weird how things happened. after tat met up wit juan at j8. long time no c her. scare she miss mi so went out wit her.

oops! i put sebas' aeroplane! hohoho but not only mi alone. nana as well =X poor guy 21st bday oso kena fly plane. but too far la.. i m too tired to even walk lor!

weilun msg mi today. ask mi fer zx's camp no. after that he called we talked abt zx alittle. i told him to persuade zx to go hm fer good. and weilun said he will at least ask him to go back fer reunion dinner... well.... its better than nothing.

last nite bumped into zx's sis on bus. tgt wit jackson. she kinda shocked to c jackson and complimented him alittle -_-" omg!! not again. but anyway i tot she is relieved to c mi with another guy. sighhhhhhhh lolx

duno whether i can endure to go out wit elaine n van later on. chances are slim though. i practically fell aslp at the pantry today when working. sob sob. poor me..

chinese new yr n v day's near........ festive seasonss.... i wanna go chinatown c the lightings laa!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

england vs spain!! goshhhh!! i wanted sooooo much to watch. according to daryl, my casillas not playing, but anyway.... its not juz casillas lorrr........!!! pls pls let spain win! thrash that toot england!!! ...

today pissed off at work. john din even complete everything and he got the cheek to go at 1.20pm. registration cards not updated with the correct rm no, keys not cut, cocktail setup not complete. even warmer stil got the breakfast food! WAT THE HECK!! i knoe he wanna go home, and i mean, "who dun??!" sigh.... anyway, once i m done wit my ranting, its another day la..!

and today is a miracle that morm was up to help! wow!! lolx. and first time seeing her so enthu to help out at club floor. man! the world is changing fast!!!

juz now was on the fone wit jackson n i realised i hav so many places to go on feb 10. maybe going shopping with daryl first, den after tat meeting juan to watch her luo zhi xiang aka xiao zhu,*on the account that she acc mi to watch my hubby at paragon tat time*, den maybe going weiwen's 21st bday party, (thanks to na, and i tot she wun be going!! wahahahah evil!), after tat van's cuzzie's bday and i told her i will be meeting them after her cuzzie's party... * its like so weird, though i knoe her cuzzie, and stil i m not part of the family ma... haha*

sigh, craving to go overseas...... but den i gotta endure.... accumulate all the PHs den go one shot jialat jialat!

and i m starting to miss bintan..... heri, marcus, linda, and the rest whom i duno their names.... and of cos ... EDISON!!!!!!!!!! oh gosh i miss his seafood restaurant, his crab beehoon, his cocktail... and... THE AMBIENCE IN THE RESTAURANT.! but den again, not sure whether will he stil be there as that time he said he maybe leaving fer duno which part of indonesia.... SIGH!!!
but anyway i stil miss bintan. and i miss playing vball, i miss the sun and the suntan lotion!!


went night safari that day and i wanted to upload the pics but again, stupid picasa!!! anyway will be going to east coast park on the 16th of feb. roller blading here i come... beware!! DUSTBINS N BUSHES~~ MEET UR DOOM~~~!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

blogging means i m not in a good mood. again.

yes. i m feeling down again.

dun ask mi y. i hate tis feeling

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

tired. duno y

tmr going nite safari. the last time i went was wit ckk xw sq n anne. sigh.. i miss those times.


and i feel like singing ktv... i wanna sing!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

and i tot i did say that i gotta stop drinking for some time. its so sinful

guess wat, last nite was out wit na, shiwei and jackson AGAIN DRINKING! wat the heck! tis time we played dice and i almost finish the whole jug!! freaking hell and i can c how unpopular i m among them. all 3 out to get me!! NA U WATCH OUT AND I TOT U SAID U LOVE MI!!!!!!

something happen over at ppc today. mr de la motte and ms wilkinson were talking abt mr moore n his thai wife. FYI mr moore happens to be like some big giant with more than half of his hair gone, not good looking. whilst mrs moore is the typical thai girl. and de la motte and wilkinson were making remarks saying that her youth has gone to an waste.

heartaching

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i miss playing volleyball so much that i dreamt of playing in the tournament last nite.

but the weird thing is, instead of sets of 25, tis volleyball tournament has sets of 31~

and instead of having six players at each side, it only has 3 players on each side..... gosh.

the worst thing is, i m playing wit one of my pri sch fren, MR JASON NG JOON KIAT! omg omg!!!!!!!!!!! how the hell did he knoe how to play volleyball??!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i almost got the shock of my life when blogger request mi to upgrade my template and POOF.... my old template was gone in a flash! luckily it was able to revert back if not i gonna bang head!


today i received a msg frm bro

bro: yo hows u n him le?
me: sigh.... he nv contact mi i nv contact him lor..
bro: den y sigh sia
me: sigh cos he has lost mi and i hav lost him, its a pity..

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pity not becos the feelings for him stil exist, pity cos ultimately, he himself caused everything to be in tis state. sigh but HEY DID I NOT SAY NOT TO MENTION HIM AGAIN! WAT THE HELL!!

sigh its feb 2nd. most dreadful day in my life i guess. i wanted so much to keep. cos its a part of me. who else can i blame but myself.

sorry sorry for abandoning you. sorry for not able to fulfil my duties. i dun wan you to suffer. i wanted to give u a good life but i noe i cant. i wonder wat will you think of me. dun hate mi. pls. cos i wanted u so much. but knoeing u wil suffer in the end, i juz cant bring myself to make tat decision. im sorry. i dun even got the chance to knoe u better.

i love you i really do. den, now and always. i wun forget u.

u will always be a part of me.

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