If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

thank you.

juan and bird. esp bird, love you!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

went town to meet van today. supposedly to get the free preview tix to jay's "canot say de secret" premiere. but end up miscommunication n no tix to movie.. *faints*
saw jay and the female lead came sg to ad fer the new movie. jay even played the piano!! omg. those who knoe mi, knoe i always hav this thing fer guys who can play piano!! i juz melted on the spot lorrrrrrrrr!!!!
anyway, since no movie tix. van n i decided to go ktv. there is 1 partyworld ktv open near shaw house, so go there................


cam whore

acting spastic 1

acting spastic 3


acting spastic 2

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

High Sch Musical - When There Was Me and You

It's funny when you find yourself

Looking from the outside

I'm standing here but all

I wantIs to be over there

Why did I let myself believe

Miracles could happen

Cause now I have to pretend

That I don't really careI thought you were my fairytale

A dream when I'm not sleeping

A wish upon a star

Thats coming true

But everybody else could tell

That I confused my feelings with the truth

When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody

That I heard you singing

And when you smiled

You made me feel

Like I could sing along

But then you went and changed the words

Now my heart is empty

I'm only left with used-to-be's

Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale

And dreams were meant for sleeping

And wishes on a star

Just don't come true

Cause now even I tell

That I confused my feelings with the truth

Cause I liked the view

When there was me and you

I can't believe that

I could be so blind

It's like you were floating

While I was falling

And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view

Thought you felt it too

When there was me and you

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

HOW TO COAX UR GF.

came across this thread in flowerpod.

1. NEVER LEAVE HER ALONE TO COOL DOWN, even if she tells you to go away or does not want to say anything. 95% of girls hate that. They like to pout and sulk and ignore you while you keep trying to cajole. Keep doing that. It may take 5min for one girl... or 10hrs for another.... before she cools down.

2. BE SINCERE. If you are trying to apologize, then be sincere about being sorry. Girls can't stand guys who say sorry but then when they find out more try to push the blame back to the girl, or take the girl's reasons lightly.

3. After you have done 1, she would have decided to stop her cold war with you, and she would open her heart again and tell you EVERYTHING she feels, and why. LISTEN ATTENTIVELY. DO NOT INTERRUPT except to clarify. When she is done, and appears to feel better that she's given you a piece of her mind, THEN you may try to explain your side of the story patiently and contritely.

4. Never make her feel that her anger is unjustified EVEN IF YOU BELIEVE YOU HAVE DONE NO WRONG. Show her that you understand how she feels and that you promise you will try to be more sensitive and not be so stupid in the future.

If you have done 1-4 well, she would have forgiven you by now. However, her mood may still be bad because of the whole episode. NOW you can start cracking silly jokes to cheer her up or do anything silly/funny/romantic/sweet/touching.

To do the cheering up BEFORE step 1-4 is just suicide ok. She will be even more angry to find that you have the mood to clown around when she's so upset about something else.

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its posted by a podder. and seriously, it sounds so true. whoever needs it, feel free to follow it. and those who feel that he dun need it, thats ur own feeling, trust mi, all guys need it! ALL GUYS!!

=X

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

stumbled upon my old old old blog. not within blogspot...... its blurty.

that was like during my poly yrs. yr 2 and 3. its good sometimes to read wat u wrote ages back. to reminiscise the feelings...

im glad that i onced lived such a carefree life. my life revolved ard, missing reece (at tat pt of time), doing projs, skipping lectures for mac breakfast, worrying abt my accounting papers *yea i sucked at accounting*, and playing gunbound.

yup, tat summarized my poly life. but, its so obvious that i was leading a worry-free, eat full slp life.

unlike the life i m having now, super emotional and on the verge of breaking down..

envious.

let me hui dao guo qu pls.

or rather, let mi dream of leading tis kind of life tonight. that will be my only wish

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

kok beng's daughter. cute bo??!! *ahem ahem, same same single eye lids as mi okie* sure grow up into a big beauty!


makes mi think of sth else. sigh. anyway, gambatte kok beng! its gonna be so fucking tough i knoe. but i really really do admire ur determination. GAMBATTE!!!!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

new skin.

the black n purple colours attracted mi. comments?

but my tagboard is kinda messy. omg. i hoping to make it one sentence white one sentence purple. but i stil figuring. bloody hell


uncle jackson MIA again nv pick up my calls. nv return my sms. tis morning he was late fer camp. sigh. most prob is stil angry fer last nite's incident. stil bluff mi say he not angry. sigh i wonder wat guys are thinking.

apologised to him last nite and the no. of sorries (both in mandarin n english) are ten times the no. of sorries i said in my 22 yrs of life. stil no avail.

haiz.. its difficult to be stuck in between, juz wan him to understand mi and i m really really really fucking really sorry abt last nite.

cried til goldfist eyes but stil, he pushed mi from his bed down onto his floor. made mi think of tzx even more. esp when he scolded mi wit all thsoe vulgarities.

stil i endured and apologised but but but he choose to ignore mi until now. sigh.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

long lost fav song.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?







































































he is a gift from the one up there.


to accompany me through my lonely nites.


to occupy H A L F of my blanket so much so that i cant stretch out my leg while slping
(he really can walked up to my blanket, den yaya papaya rest on it one lor!*)


to wake me up early morning juz cos theres stranger walking past my corridor


to chew my sony ericsson charger in order to have another excuse to change to my k800i



despite everything he does, HE NOT AT ALL A PAIN IN THE ASS!


nono pepper u are not a pain in the ass!!


i love u! muacks!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i have done all i can.

to prevent another tragedy

to prevent history from repeating

to prevent me from looking back

to move on

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

bloggie

feeling vexed now. the feeling came back again. and i ate 2 sleeping pills hoping to fall into a deep sleep

y izit that everytime, i put aside my pride, told u wat i was unhappy or angry abt, u mere replied with "erm, ya"

y izit that after all things i told u, i got labelled as "petty"

and i fucking tot this word will and shud not be associated with me

how can i tell u how much insecure i am

how can i let u knoe that how much i wan u to try ur best to give mi TAT sense of security that i have been searching within u all along

how can i let u understand how the feeling is like when ur bf knoe that u are angry but yet did nothing to explain or pacify u and assume u got the ability to "auto heal"

am i not a part of the norm? or izzit as time goes by, i m being deterred away n away from the norm?

so after how much anger i had in me last nite, i made the first move. i called. i explained. i requested.

how i wish whoever is with mi now. so that i can cry like no body's fucking business.

can anyone tell mi y izzit i knoe nothing but cry. knoe nothing but weep.

do u really think that being the way i m now, i will be happy? i will feel light hearted?

can someone who is out of the norm, as petty as i am, as insecure as i am, hold mi tight, caress me and tell mi he/she knoes how i felt? stroke my hair, look at me to sleep, held my hand, and give mi the word of security.

and that i knoe tat i m not alone. and that i realise someone is with me all along.



it feels at least slightly better to cry and type out a post in my blog. it really does.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

these few days was at uncle jackson hse
was enjoying myself
however
the one up there decided to play a prank on mi
parted wit him today with 101 unhappiness and anger in me
well.......
tis is wat i call --- short lived happiness



with my first plushie from uncle jackson
its been ages since i got a soft toy as a pressie.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?


steamboat

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

WONG HOILING! I COMMAND U TO DEL THE POST OF UR HARRY POTTER SPOILER!!

lucky i haven read finish tat post! i immediately stop and exit tat page of urs!!

FYI i have not collected my potter yet! yes! so freaking late! i saw tis fatty reading while walking along the woodlands mrt! E N V Y! i swear tat tmr i will be going to collect!!!!!


anyway juz back from steamboat wit uncle jackson.! wil upload the pics later


i think having depression is good! cos i get to enjoy these few days! wohohohohohohoh~ seldom u will c uncle jackson suggesting bringing mi town fer walk walk or food! kekekeke

i wish my depression will last forever! kekekekeke

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

am listening to she's wo he xin fu you yue ding.

brought back alot of memoriesss so cool.

linked mi to she's tian shi zai chang ge.....

memoriesss

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

seriously i duno wats gotten into me


i need to keep myself occupied if not my tots wil run wild.


wat is tis???!

wat is wat and wat is wat?!

i wanna go running, go swimming, play vball. pls pls pls. allow mi.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

the place where i find tranquility




despite tat, i did the things that i have done. i m anticipating there's bound to be more to come.

i knoe i shud i knoe but i cant

i think i m getting from bad to worse each day


im sorry fer all those who knew wat i have been up to these few days

i noe, i shud be responsible fer wat i did and apologising to others wun help an inch

but den again, sorry fer causing worries bla bla bla

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

happy birthday to ms vanessa li zhu shu hui!! muackssss!! love u sis!!!!!!!

imagine someone cried to her bf in the middle of the night ystd, saying mi n elaine nv celebrate her bday with her, somemore ek going to attend course earlier today. omg imagine her say say say til weeping! wahahahah so funny!!

i tell u, tis gonna be the joke of the year!! so end up ek msg-ed mi ard 5am and planned a surprise celebration!

but but but, due to poor coordination, its a surprise but its a cannot make it one. hahahaha who the hell hid himself up, lited the candles on the cake, AND LEFT HIS HP, CAR KEYS BESIDE THE CAKE!! omg... cos i met up wit van fer ktv earlier on, and found an excuse to go her hse rightfully. the moment i saw ek's car keys and his hp, my first tot was... "ermmmm..... wat the fuck! where got ppl leave traces behind one!!"

ahahhaa but according to elaine, patrick huang biao ge and ek, the moment the 3 of them stepped in and started to prepare, mi n van already outside the door!!! hahahahaha

so ek panicked and did those stupid traces! hahaha

ek oso nv tell mi to stall time downstairs lor! haha but its really a fun one! how sweet our mr tan ek was. although when we wan van to kiss him, he present his foot to van instead. other than tat, he's sweet to van k! hahahahha



and and and, the ktv was a super crazy one. took alot of videos which i have yet to upload onto youtube. haha madness!


anyway i gotta slp. i m tired. tmr working 11am. yawnz





sidenote.

biaoge,elaine,van n ek told mi the same thing but i chose not to believe. i m feeling abit inbalance now. seriously i doubt i can slp too. sighhh well tis is me. wat can i do other than feeling abit upset. i loathe myself. fucking hell! so much fer tis kind of things. thanks!

i rather experienced it myself than to believe wat ppl say. yea tats mi super stubborn. but but but. aint tis call perseverance?! or faith? or naive? or izzit juz plain stupid!

nabei la! fuck la!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i yearn fer a life much more simplier than u can imagine.

period

the one im having one, aint wat i wished fer and is lagging far behind than wat i hoped fer.

period

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i juz wanna say. FUCK U BITCH. tis sentence means everything.

and yes. it also means that one day, u gonna regret this.

librans are peace lovers. yeh! tats me. but all peace lovers have their limits. esp a short tempered peace lover like me.

i did not wan to create any trouble in the workplace as im stil fresh n new. but trust mi, sometimes there are things i need to do though i do not wish to do.

and and and mark my words. dun force me to declare war with u, u wudnt like it and ill make sure, the ultimate winner is me. M A R K M Y W O R D !




anyway. im going to watch potter tmr!! hohoho!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i hav booked the tits tix to harry potter for the sneak preview on 11 jul!! hohohohoh! somemore its at vivo city!!!!!!!!! i long always wanted to go vivo fer a movie. but though tis time is not tat tat vivo grand grand cinema. but juz make do with it la. same same vivo.


i m so going to plan myself to work morning on the 11th. den 12 off! keke keke keke! lalala or maybe 11 off den 12 B. we'll see how. yea! i m uuper excited when i clicked the CONFIRM button online. soo soo excited!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

becos of the tight rooms situation recently, count urself lucky if u got 1 double check in per day!

we were practically SNATCHING AND STEALING ROOMS from one another! hahahah

but fer my case. got a few ALMOST double checked in but thanks to my small but sharp eyes i managed to prevent! if not more warning letters gotta come.

recently met up with super alot fussy n -_-""" guests. well.............. hmm....... yeaaa...

anyway i m going to watch transformers tgt with uncle jackson later on at cwp. omg. i have been lemming so so much. but last few nites keep sold out sold out. yawns

today my colleague was saying... transformers super nice lro!! u watched le super super wun regret!

as fer how true it is... we shall see...

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