If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i love shawna lam jia min (note, i din tease call u lan jiao bin!) n leow fenni (see! i din call u bimbotic leow!)! =X

without the both of them, i cant imagine how much i gonna suffer.

it really feels good to have the both of them ard. though everending bickerings, swearings, fightings, bitchings.. i will stil love them to bits. and i bet they will feel the same way too!

i juz love u all so much la! really really i do!

and all in all, it juz show one thing. how strong is love compare to best frens?

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

went over to gby's blog.

and i got to say, thanks fer ur support all these while. be it present or past.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

after talking to van the day before. i felt SLIGHTLY balanced. but stil keep thinking abt it... sighhhhhhhhhh. like wat van said, i shud clarify if not it will be like a prick inside me. hard to pull it out.

sigh i hate to be like tat. sigh. but at least i knoe that van understand how i felt at the pt of time. at least i m not a weirdo. not someone petty.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

wats with the "tough times don't last, tough men do"??

i saw it on jinde's blog, anne and mj put it under their msn nick! lol.

now its a trend ahh

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i m feeling super imbalanced or unbalanced or inbalanced or watever u call it

nothing to do wit uncle jackson

i hate myself fer having tis kind of feelings inside mi.

and i tot i shud be super generous with this kind of things.

but but but i hate tis type of me. so petty so ungenerous so idiotic!

S I G H

i hav to admit, i felt lousy

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

oh ya. forgotten to post tis up when i was surfing net 2 days back.

omg tis is so true but but but, like wat the link said "Horoscope is not meant to limit what can happen, but to help us understand what has happened and prepare for what will happen."


For Virgo: Libra's extravagant, indecisive nature bothers you, however Libra's charm can normally melt your critical tongue. Not likely to be lasting but it can be passionate while it lasts.

For Libra: No Way! The practical Virgoan will never satisfy your desires. You're better not to pursue this partner for any kind of a long term commitment.

Virgo Man & Libra Woman
This match does not have much chance of working out. You are a loving and affectionate person who likes to show her emotions. The Virgo boy is reserved and low-key, preferring to keep his emotions to himself. It's almost impossible for a Libra girl to get an "I love you" out of this guy. You will actually end up getting very depressed after a while with him, because he is overly critical and can see the dark side in everything. Meanwhile, you are a sunny optimist and you need a love partner who shares your happy outlook on life. He is also very fussy, which drives you crazy in a boyfriend. He's not "guy" enough for you. This is not a good love match.

Libra girl, Virgo guy needs your TLC just as much as you need his, but he's going to be a little more coy about letting you know how he really feels. Showing his true feelings to the world is not one of his big strengths, but it is one of yours. Once you both are able to eliminate fear of baring your souls, this can be a match made in heaven.


Sidenote: how true is tis. well i will leave it to whoever to judge. quote from laogong: its sooooo true! hahaha anyway, frankly speaking i was quite shocked with i saw tis result. but well, it proves to mi tat sometimes toopid uncle jackson's actions aint without relevant grounds. so erm, makes mi SLIGHTLY i repeat S L I G H T L Y able to accept some of the actions tat he hav done! B U T tat doesnt means tat those things that he hav done are right!

hohohoho but anyway, i guess its a person to person basis and it juz so happen tat the above result fits both of us too well to be true. but. stil. even. it says we do not hav much chance of working out............. i believe we shudnt place our fate in the hands of tis kinda things ba...... HELL TO U lolx

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

went esplanade fer fireworks display last nite with uncle jackson. it was so crowded at citylink mall and all the way to esplanade......

i think my k750 is getting older n older. the images are getting blurrer n blurrer. imagine it was once a super Super cool phone. now... sigh it has become a legend!!....... sobs
anyway make do with my fireworks pic laaa




at station while going back homeeee...

anyway... irene joanne, does the below pic look familiar??? memories of our "sinful" deeds??
sigh........ i miss the times so much tat i bought it to eat juz cos i miss club floor, miss irene joanne aza so so so so so so so much.! aiya i juz miss all the things associated with club floor can!

video fer the fireworks...........................



FYI : the narration inside the above video is not done by me ya?! the whoOoo and the brbrauertbbauthoaigrhth, came from the tourists beside mi from vietnam (i think so la). =X

and oh ya! i saw ivan tay (who looks like tay ping hui and is our so called *tourism hunk* during my poly sch yrs!) wit his gf! hohohohoho. but juz a mere hi kaili and a cya from him! lolx! juan juan juan! envy mi rite!!!! =X

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?









due to boredom n shawna's introduction, i went to play tis celebrity look alike! bloody hell!! how come shawna got resemblance of ANDY LAU i dun hhaveeeee!!

Mango Cheesecake says (3:45 PM):y no andy lau!!
Mango Cheesecake says (3:45 PM):lol
Death by emotional self-indulgence says (3:45 PM):get over it
Death by emotional self-indulgence says (3:45 PM):I AM ANDY LAU
Mango Cheesecake says (3:46 PM):yawnz!!!!!!!
**wat a bitch!**

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

face n fight ur own probs

no one can solve it fer u

first, stop ur wishful thinking

put ur naive-ness to a full stop

second, fucking heck care abt all kind of emotions, love, hate, likes, dislikes

lastly, live in ur own world.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

You Are An ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. In love, you value harmony and mutual understanding.You will apologize or give someone the benefit of the doubt, if it means getting over a fight sooner. At work, you are good at building relationships and connecting with people.You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher. How you see yourself: Organized, dependable, co-operative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Opinionated, critical, and know-it-all

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

first day at work at ocbc compass point. no pretty gals. *yawn* no eye candies *yawn yawn yawn*

anyway uncle jackson woke up early 7.45am (ya, he woke up at the time i supposed to go down bus stop wait fer bus!*) to accompany mi to raffles place ocbc building as i need to go there to get my branch posting and also a lil briefing... i was so so so shocked by his gesture to wake up so early despite he's on leave today, stil waited fer mi fer mi to finish my briefing, den accompany ate breakfast at compass point, den sent mi go work! omg!!!!! he is sooo nice!!!!!!!!! -_-"

psst: i think he is afraid of me bumping into tzx in ocbc building hence he accompanied mi there. =X lol.

AND AND AND, the best part was, while we were crossing the road towards raffles place mrt after my briefing, my 1 o'clock, I SAW WEILUN AND TZX! omg omg. actually weilun caught my attention first, cos of his build, den i noticed tzx.

i duno wats my feeling, but immediately, i felt so weak, like scare tio like tat! =X anyway, i think tzx saw mi n jackson, *we werent holding hands at tat time though* wahahahaha

and i was joking with uncle jackson, should tzx approach me, i immediately claimed tat i duno uncle jackson, he's juz mr 'stranger J'... hohohohho!! no la. joking lo bloody hell.



anyway i start to believe that things are turing towards a slightly better side fer e both of us. i sincerely hope tat its not a mirage la.

but but, uncle jackson u listen uP! SHOULD YOU TAKE ANOTHER PIC WHICH WHOEVER GAL AND U PUT UR HANDS ON HER LAP AGAIN! I WILL MAKE SURE U BECOME CAPTAIN HOOK!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i knoe ever since we got together, i did lied to you.

but tat time, i promised you that everything i will come clean with you and wil not hide anything from you. and i have really from the bottom of my heart to be a good gf. i knoe i hav got alot of flaws plus my irregular mood swings n depression, i hav been trying, i really am.

but the more i've tried. the more i felt that you are drifting away away away from me. in the past, even "i love you" are not spelt out, at least holding of hands give me a reassurance. nowadays, its either we quarelled and u brought out my past faults to deal with me, or you totally heck care abt me.

y izzit tis kind of distant feeling is getting stronger? i hate myself. hate myself to the core. how can i possibly be so fucking vulnerable. i hate myself fer crying as n when i feel like it. and the prob is, now even tears flow out, it wun ease the pain at all. none at all. in fact, the more tears came flowing out, the more i hate tis kind of me.

i hate myself fer being so emotional and so bloody foolish. so bloody naive. i tot everything is shown on the surface, and i neglected the fact that sometimes, the surface might be juz a mirage.

i hate mirages. it gives false hopes to people. its juz a hallucination. something that when you realised that it does not exist at all, you will be doubly disappointed.

ystd at your hse, i have so much to tell you. but i was so afraid that any err in my words will lead us to quarrel again. and i will do anything to get tis relationship back on tracks again. stable and peacefully. period.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

dear bloggie

its in the middle of the night and u are the only one whom i can confide in.

nitemares again. it got me waking up with a stomp, and burst up crying like no body's biz. like again, my inner most pain has resurfaced. once, it reminded mi of that agony. and i was sobbing like fuck. i was afraid to go back to slp again. maybe its due to my recent outburst of depression that got me thinking back of those painful stuffs. i was crying so hard tat i tried to cry discreetly but to no avail.

im sorry. its been a long time but stil im sorry. i always am.

uncle jackson was sleeping beside me. fer the benefit of the doubt. he did not hear me crying and din noe abt my nitemares and was too tired to care abt me. yea. benefit of the doubt fer i dun wish to probe any further, dun wish to hear things like "ya i noe u are crying but so wat?" or "i knoe u are crying but too tired to care"

in the past, he was the one who soothe my fright, my anxiety and my helplessness. but now. benefit of the doubt again, he din hear me crying. yea he din.

the past's back haunting me again. pathetic piece of shit i am.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

Happy Birthday to Ms Tan Hui Juan!!!!!
My Big Mac, bird's nuggets, fries and juan's green teA!
Me going to ocbc interview...

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