If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

am back.

tired. sleepy. eyes swollen from crying.


how much i miss my kitty.
as usual she was there to accompany mi.


humans are nothing.
when i need someone to pei mi, only kitty will. *or she dun hav a choice?*

left 2 hrs of slp before goin to work.

nite

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i typed out a whole chunk of unhappiness.

and when i almost wanted to click "publish post", i stop.

i reckon i shudnt type how i felt out.

i duno y, juz let mi keep to myself and let mi depress again.


i love the feeling of getting depressed and feeling so unwanted.


trust mi. i aint making all these up!

sis y do u hav to leave fer msia today.

how lost am i without u.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

yawnz.. freaking tired!

hello hello anybody there??!!

oh ya did i mention.. one of my annonymous neighbour (count him/her self lucky that its annoymous), complained to HDB that pepper has been barking from 9pm to dawn...... and that i m tieing pepper up at the service balcony......

SO COOL!! i din knoe pepper hav got tat kind of strength, though talkative i am, ask mi to talk from 9pm til dawn, i think i will die from exhaustion!

and......... bloody hell!! i think he/she is itching fer a beating!! WAT THE FUCK! say i tied pepper at the svc balcony!!!!

find mi a rope at my hse!!!! take pictures to prove it u donkey!!! and.... tat hdb personnel called and said that she recvd complaints that pepper barking non stop and i m tieing him up.......

guess my reaction??!!
YEAS! I SHOUTED BACK AT HER!

Lady : is tis miss chow
Me: yes speaking
Lady: tis is XXX from HDB, erm i recvd complaints saying that ur dog has been barking from 9pm till dawn.... and someone saw u tie-ing ur dog at ur svc balcony...
Me: oh really?????? maybe u will wan to think........ dog barking from 9pm til dawn..... i hav got humans at home and they need to slp, and most of them need to work.. do u think we can endure tis??
Me: in the most *cooled* tone.... and.. tell tat someone to take pics of me tie-ing up my dog den.. no use complaining without evidence..... and u...... listening to one sided story??! believing it??!! i can jolly well tell u, i saw my neighbour tie-ing someone up at his room, do u take my word fer it?! Pls la.. think! *i wanted to ask her to use her brain and tihkn, but i reckon she got the authority to take peper away, so decided to be slightly nice to her*
Lady: *alittle helpless* ehh yayaya i did tell the person to provide evidence.. yaya i will let the person knoe.......
Me: ya i hope u will do that. my hp is running low batt, i dun wish to say anymore
Lady: okok.. byebye
Me: *click*


thinking that someone actually saw me tie-ing pepper up, aches me! i cant imagine pepper being tied up and his helpless look! sigh!!

but anyway my conscience is clear! let alone my family members!! and that will be the last thing we will do on earth!!!!!! BLOODY HELL!!

so dun ever let mi find out who the fuck complained abt tis, i will make sure i hang him/her at the svc balcony!! *glares!!*



anyway works been fine fer mie. tmr my buddy OFF day and i will be alone. yawnx!! due to my lazines. i din really remember much abt the cashier closing part! kekekee lalalllala well.. tmr.. trial and error ba!

with regards to joanne's comments on my friendster...

ms lee, u go club toilet use finish toilet paper oso nv ask houseman replenish, mi n irene wanna go there shit see no toilet paper the shit din even come out...

HOW TO WORK WITH U AS A CLIQUE U TELL MI??~


=X hahahahaahahahahahah we love u still!!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?




becos of this creature today! i fell, injured my knee and sprained my ankle A G A I N! yes the same one!

well.... i sstil love him! hahahahaha

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

realised tat everyone's is using my "eat shit n die"

hahahahahahaha now den i noe i m THAT "influential"


haaa anyway, tis phrase originated from zx.

and now it became a habit for mi.

well.. habits............. bad habits. even u knoe u are so hook onto it, u gotta quit.



cos in the long run, u may get affected by it. emotionally or physically.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

at uncle jackson hse, but as he was glued to his computer. i hav got no choice but to find entertainment myself. hence, was reading blogs of those babies or toddlers or watever u call them..... haaa one of my fav : http://babyedgar.blogspot.com hes super handsome!!!

den i was browsing online for baby names.............. hahahaha feel so much like a mother now..!!

and i turned to uncle jackson and told him... : i wanna have baby lehx!!

guess his reaction.....

"SIAO AH!"

o.o"

suddenly feel how good it is to be a mum! haha with those joyful moments seeing ur bby growing teeth la.... taking his/her first step la, bring him/her to zoo ah, swimming pool, botanic garden, east coast bla bla bla....

its a blessing to hav a baby!! but of cos, u gotta be financially and emotionally prepared in order to give ur bby a good life!

hmmm......

okok.....

girls name which i prefer.. i actually browse randomly at the bby names' site..

1) Adora - Loved Child
2) Breanne - Noble, Strong (i wan her to be strong... as in mentally laaaa)
3) Caitlyn - Pure
4) Clea - Famous flower (though i nv heard before la.... )
5) Kailyn - Slender (ehhh almost the same as my name, and of cos i wan her to hav slender legs like ma xiaoling! kkeke )


hehehehe okok i admit i hav got favouritism.. i always yearn to have a bby girl! den i can help her tie plaits, she can learn piano and i can sing beside her, dress her up in pretty purple dresses.....................

so erm... fer boys name....... hmmmm juz name him WAYNE la...... *smirks* cos hor, all of the WAYNEs tat i know, they are all very handsome! *big big grins*

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

on unpaid leave for 2 days. monday den return to work. dun ask mi y.

i dun wish to say. i juz so so so so so freaking sad. i duno y. or maybe i knoe but im in denial.

its super irresponsible of me to take 2 days of unpaid but in order to work happily, i gotta sort out my feelings first.

im sorry.

these 2 days all i did was weep n weep. in silence, or not.

last nite uncle jackson brought mi to ktv wit his fren.. kinda lighten mi up alittle as i get to sing.

but when the day comes. i m back to the same super attitude mi again!

i duno wat im feeling rite now.

grumpy grouchy down lost watever. none of the above

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

went AVA to collect pepper's license! omg.. its almost like Singapore's version of Journey to the West!!

its located at some ulu ulu part of Pasir Panjang.........

so erm i alighted at harbourfront, asp LIM JIN DE *I M SO GONNA PUT UR NAME BIG BIG.. grrrrrrr*, the bus stop is juz below harbourfront centre.. and i gonna take bus 30 and alight at the 8th stop, taking in the stop that i boarded is the 1st stop..... so erm....................... i followed his sms, and i alighted at the 8th stop... and i was brought to some wharf over at duno where oso!!

i was looking all ard for AVA or sth related to tat.. but i cant find any.......................... i was on the verge of bursting into tears lor... cos tat freaking place was super ulu aand those old old buildings!!!!!! so i calmed myself down, andwalked to the bus stop where i alighted, checked the directory................... *LIM JIN DE said i gotta take the bus towards boon lay interchange*

AND TO MY HORROR.. i actually boarded the bus from the opposite direction!!!!! ehhhhhhhhhhh its my fault la........ cos i left out the part tat i SHUD take the bus towards boon lay interchange!!

BUT DEN AGAIN! LIM JIN DE! e info u gave oso wrong lor!!!!!! the bus stop is not below harbourfront food centre! its O P P O S I T E ~~~ but well.... i gonna grateful fer his help if not i think until now im stil trap in duno which part of singapore! lolx

SO AT LAST! i took the right direction bus....... and count 8th bus stop starting from harbour front centre................... and........................... I MISSED THE 8TH STOP~~~ as the bus stop is so small and rundown, i din even knoe there is a bus stop until it passed me!! I PANICKED~ and immediately pressed the bell. sooooo erm... i admit im such an unlucky ass, the 9th stop was SUPER (i repeat!) S U P E R farrrrrrrrrrr! man!! i gotta walk walkwalk walk walk back!!!

the bus stop and the surroundings......... ulu rite!

actually i hav been to here before! tat time having night cycling with laogong laopo and spouses, bro, yk n zx, i think we cycled past here bfore....... any impression??!!



finally i knoe where MAS (Monetary Authority of Singapore) is........... somemore there is a guard at the entrace lor.. wanted to take a pic but i scare wait he shoot mi! =X


and finally........................

so ulu rite!!



i walked in and i can hear dogs whining.... and barking............. i den knoe that its a place fer unlicensed and stray dogs...... i guess all of the dogs are to be put to slp.......... *welll kinda sad* there was tis uncle!omg hes got a rottweiler and a golden retriever!!!!!! he drove a BMW!! dammit! and i stil gotta take bus!! hahahahahahahaha

and i understand y dogs in singapore gotta be licensed!

its to prevent rabies which can be spread to human thru dog bites! well, until now, theres no cases of rabies in Singapore... in case rabies break out in Singapore, AVA gotta put all unlicensed and stray dogs to sleep.......... so if pepper is licensed, they wun be him to slp, maybe will give him proper treatment if he got rabies! CHOY!!!!

so erm.. vanessa li zhuhui................ i suggest u go take licenses fer dou dou n boy boy la........ in my opinion, though SIngapore is safe... but in case anything happens, i wundnt wan to see ppl putting my precious to slp! =X

after getting the license, i boarded bus 188 to harbourfront. at first i was unsure if its going straight to the interchange........ when i boarded.... i saw VINCENT!!! kekekeke erm.... so weird lor.... i saw him and i tot to myself : looks familiar lehx!

so i saw vincent, the first ting i asked him was... "tis bus is to harbourfront interchange hor??!" hahahah muz double confirm!!

went to collect my islander card at vivo, and went pet safari... i always wanted to go there until vincent remind mi!!! so cool!





pepper's badge!


pepper with his new badge! *he keep biting lor*
should the badge broke, i gonna train him to go AVA take himself!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

thank you turtle lim fer giving me such a precise and detailed information on how to go to AVA tmr........... hahaha sure cleared all my doubts man!! hahaha so sweet of u!! hahhahahah thanks again!! i knoe i wun lost wit the directions u gave!


and.... seriously, ..... any single and available gals out there, who prefer a PERFECT guy, apart from his grumpy temper and grouchy character, pls pls pls consider mr fu yong chang!! really, somemore got free levis jeans lehx!! hahaha

thanks fer giving me those advices!! i knoe.. u are such a perfect guy excluding ur temper and naggy nature.... hahahhahaha =X really thanks!! hope u get ur CBR or R1 soon k!! it benefits mi as well!

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i met eugene yeo in hotel tis afternoon!!!!!

he was going into the lift while me n colleagues were walking out.. as the door opens, i looked at him and thought to myself, " wah he look like eugene yeo lehx! but face abit plump. is the fatter version of him... "

den he was staring so hard at me that his eyes almost popped out! den he open his mouth and said, " how come u are here??!"

i was so taken aback!! wat the fuck! how come he knoe mi!! den suddenly i den realised, " oh he is eugene yeo!" wahahahahhaahhhaha

den i told him, "i work full time here la.. " (well, no need to tell him dept, i guess he can see even if he's blind!)

so embarrassing in front of him i wore my uniform!! hahaha den he told me he was having his attachement there.... haha den becos as he walked into the lift, he was turning his head to talk to me, he din note the lift's door is closing and he bang half of his face into the lift door! hahahaha its hilarious lor!!

hmm bowen green tag.. by right is older than mi by 2 yrs old............... how come stil in shatec huh???! eh i din ask, cos too rush le... den i msg-ed na!

NA I SAW EUG YEO!! hahahaahah

now, na's sms-ing me asking me wat happen. as according to na and hoe (eug's best buddy), na said eug got a small crush on me! and she said, "lucky u"

ehh and i tot i hav long bypassed the times when ppl have got crush on me..... wahahahahahah!!

shawna lam, bullshit la u!!


anyway finally finished the 2 days orientation. AT LAST I WENT TO THE TOP OF THE M!!! revolving restaurant........ according to my knowledge, in singapore got 2 revolving restaurant one is meritus, one is at harbourfront tat prima duno wat. so meritus have got a highest cos is 39 floor ma.... prima duno wat only 8th floor.

soo cool!! u can feel the restaurant really moved lor!!! * i am waiting fer my MHR card* got 50% discount for all outlets!! kekekekeekkekeekekke the view is superb! but of cos, swissotel's new asia bar and equinox's views stil number 1. haha

and guess wat! i hav got 48 over 50 fer my test! i myself was surprised! kekekke *PROUD* cos i din read up anything. juz anyhow last min flipped thru. so many faces to remember, so many floors to take note, so many things to memorise! hehehehehe

i gotta go slp now. i m so tired! studying makes one tired.

TMR IS MY OFF DAY!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

first day at recep....

well..... cos i have experience working, i have already gotten the basics.

so my toot trainer keep saying... "okie la u can work on ur own already laa"

HELLO!! opera i long time nv use, i duno how to swop rooms, duno the benefits, duno the breakfast package and u call tis "can work on ur own already" *faints*

haa but overall he is a good trainer la.. at least better than i expected. he stil haven teach mi the safe box procedure la.. bla bla bla.... but he is shorter than me.... hahahha

i always think that guys who are shorter than me are good to bully! =X

today DM said my lippy not RED enuff, FRINGE too longgggggggggggggg............ yawnx... y am i always the unlucky ass to get caught for grooming, over at GPP oso like tat.. Pan Pac oso like tat....... sighhh!

do i appear very LOK COK *meaning, erm ruggard* i juz dun like red lippy can??!!

anyway, later i gonna cut my fringe.,, herherher! =X


some pics to share, was browsing thru my fone juz now and i found these picss... lolx


hehehehe can imagine how estatic i m


yeayeayea!!!


me n pox pox lee


uncle jackson n me
our pics together getting lesser n lesser lehx! u dun like take pics wit mi izzit

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

finally its my off daY!!!

tmr onwards i will be starting work at reception. am attached to my so called "buddy" peikai. yea hes a guy. i hate attaching to male buddies.

firstly, they cant teach!
secondly, they really cant teach!
thirdly, they seriously cant teach!


i stil prefer female ones. tat time at marina mandarin, my female trainers :phoebe, steph niang, jesstoh.. wa lao they are better than steven lor... but of cos justin pang stil the best! hahaha

anyway, spent a lazy sunday over at jackson's house.... bored bored bored. am so broke, dun even hav the mood to go out!


been having almost the same nitemare thesefew days. even juz now taking nap too.! sigh............... juz now i dreamt that i was applying mascara on his long eyelashes, den came another scene of him hitting me at his bedroom, pushing me against the wall. real hard!

bloody hell, when wil this stop?! its been quite some time.. pls pls juz get over it once n fer all can!



and oh ya my la senza spree. stupid la senza send over 1 wrong design and colour but size matches. there are a total of 3 of us whom ordered the same design colour and size. so right now there are 2 right ones and 1 wrong one.

the spree-er hav totally no idea how to go about sending the bras out. she has been emailing them but i think they said sth like they admitted its their fault but cant refund or wat. aiya watever, den i was suggesting to the spree holder saying, the first 2 who paid first, will get the correct bra, the last who paid, well, consider urself unlucky, u get the wrong bra.

tell me wat to do la. la senza dun wanna refund, dun wanna resend, the only way i can think of its like tat lor....

psst: im the second to pay the money! kekekekekeke

rather than the 3 of us cant get our bras, might as well use my method rite! at least it benefits 2 la!!!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i hav a feeling that i m going to be super sick nex week ..

today at standing at the concierge, i am shivering like no body';s biz. main thing was, i was not feeling cold at all.. gosh!

and i am actually enduring the whole day. i duno wat hav i endured, but literally i juz dragged myself thru today.

i m feeling soooooooooo xinku! i duno how to say it out, but my whole body's soo tired. and i guess it hopes to fell into those "slping beauty" kinda slp! *anyone can tell mi how long did slping beauty slp??"


standing at concierge whole day long... super tired and free... so i actually resort to taking luggages for the guests. hahahaha irather make myself busy than to stand there like a vase!

so i helping guests to carry their super wooper heavy luggages... imagine someone wearing so high split cheongsam doing those stunts!! whooo! UGLY!hahahah well... wat to do. i like to keep myself occupied.

yea tmr meritus club! 31st floor. at last, i m back to somewhere familiar. ehh make do with it though its not GPP's PPC. sama sama la..

anywaya i gonna slp now. i m so tired. so much for doing pepper's license, tat stupid fucking browser play me out!

good nite everyone. and i hope i wun hav the same dream tat i had last nite. pls. no.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

happy 20th birthday to feng juannnn!!!! =X i love calling u tis name! kekekeke.... yawnz...... makes mi feel so old! -_-"

anyway, at last today i start to do sth "constructive"... helping BC to merge those duplicate profiles... wow!! THAT CONSTRUCTIVE!!

Bc's manager, Doreen Ng..... wa!! dun play play.. thought she is veneticia's good fren (veneticia is marina mandarin's business centre's manager as well), both of them same league one.. super auntie and talkative....

but den....... Doreen is even updated than me with regards to those taiwan drama series!! omg!!! i was telling her i hav already downloaded the latest episode of My Lucky Star starrring Jimmy Lin... she was like :OH! I FINISHED WATCHIGN IT ALREADY!"

steady!!! i admit defeat! and i tot i was the Queen of Taiwan Series! oh my! the Empress of Taiwan Series is actually Doreen Ng!!!!


yup, went over to irene;s blog. OH YA! MR MONTI!!! u will be going back home soon!! gosh... i can stil recall the times when i told u..." u are staying for 113 nites... soooooo longgg...."" and now.... more than 100 nights have passed.......

and yup, i miss u mr monti!!! miss every tuesday!!! and u will say "its tuesday! its lamb nite andi will definitely be up here!"

sighhh and before u go back!!! mr monti! come meritus mandarin find mi laaa!! i will be at the counter!! ..... or erm... u can hav a WEEKEND ROOM together with MR DENYER provided he's here in singapore la! hahahaha *wink wink*

anyway i really miss all of uuuuuuuu! i miss irene, miss feng juan, miss joanne!!! miss u all laaaa...


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guess wat i saw when i was on the train today...

1.........................
2................................................
3.....................................................................................

TADA!!!!



can u believe it... a name soo uncommon, can actually pop out IN FRONT OF ME IN THE TRAIN!

thank you the one up there
u really made my day

are u teaching mi that i gotta live with it
and that there are thousands of things tat can brought back hurtful memories
all i have to do is to put all things down n carry on with life?

are u?

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

pertaining to my latest post....

i did find an advantage fer having such lousy health.


herherher, tat isss..... uncle jackson will give mi suprise by popping out at my hse with food!!!!

was super surprised to c him appearing outside my bedroom window... cos when he called earlier on, i tot he was outside meeting him gal frens... *humpf*

so end up he was actually on the way to my hse...

anyway i hope that i will not make it a habit to reckon that every single time that i m sick, he will be here to visit mi n bring mi food.

if one day he failed to do so, i will be so disappointed! haahaa okok i think too much again... yawnz!!


thanks fer ur food la...... love you deep deep~ muacks!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

sometimes i hate my body and i hate my immue system.

i fell sick so easily. and gets tired easily

before tat incident, i was such an healthy asshole. unless i geng MC, i can stay healthy fer 1 yr thruout

after tat incident, i guess cos i din eat those tonics to build up my health, i keep falling sick. even if tis juz a small cough, it will need at least few mths to recover.

izzit karma?~ fer doing sth bad? sth unforgiveable?

well... i gotta go back to slp and rest... i m so tired.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

The newest blogging game.

Must read, & played !!

----:TAGGED:----

This is what you are supposed to do. Cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game. Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog. Here goes..

Weird things ... .... ... ... ... ... ...

1) i hate potatos to the max, but i love potato chips and french fries!

2) i have short sightedness and long sightedness on each of my eyes but i dun wear specs nor contact lens.....

3) i wear watches on my right hand... *consider weird? as i see all of my right handed frens wore their watches on their left hand*

5) ITS A MUST for me to cover blanket when i slp.. even its a hot and stuffy nite. if not, i will feel as though something is missing and i cant slp. and of cus, plus my bolster!

6) when im in the loo doing BIG business, i will need to undress EVERYTHING and tie up my hair, like tat i will be able to shit in peace. if not, half of the shits will not come out and will be stuck at my arsehole!!
[lols. i knoe tis is super gross! but pls note, in public toilet i will not do it. hence i love to shit ONLY at home! hahaha]

People I tagged ... ... ... ... ...

1) Shawna Lam
2) Commonwealth aka Irene Teo
3) Tanglin Halt aka Joanne Lee
4) Seragoon aka Azaleas Loh
5) Alan
6) Nadiah

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

down with cough n runny nose........ slight fever..

sigh its juz only the 2nd day of work lor!! anyway, in order not to tarnish my record, i crawl oso will crawl there.... hehehehehe

today at resvn is juz as boring... sitting there reading piles n piles of notes. how can?? esp when i m sneezing n coughing away...... sighhhh

oh ya. saw eric!!! neh....... irene n joanne remember anot, his father is the owner or sth of Shanghai Sheraton....... eric was in a meeting when he saw mi and i was on the fone, he actually WAVED to me from his office. omg!!! so the rest of them turned and looked at a freak with puffy eyes and swollen red nose in a red cheongsam!! *shy!*

anyway i gonna slp now...... i m so tired...

stupid uncle jackson din pick up my call.. he really go and find another gf in case i die from my runny nose and sore throat! steady! uncle jackson u watch out!



pics! minna san, oyasumi nasai!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

alrite!! took 2 hrs to finally found my fitting red cheongsam... wat the toot!! anyway its a good thing as i can take advantage of this and slowly dilly dally all my things.

so end up, i changed into the cheongsam at 12noon. lol. my reporting time was 9am. hahaha

went to back office and AFOM introduced me to some of the colleagues, ehh i think the meritus club floor manager, CARMEN, looks pretty!! hee hee

anyway.......... Recept mgr.... hmmmm nonono. a bad impression. shaltnt elaborate on why, but i think i gonna have a tough time there....

today's induction start with telephone operator.... hmm boringgggggg~~~ tmr and the day after i will be going rooms resvn.... BORING BORING! heard frm joreen they wun give anything to do... juz sit there and try not to doze off! goodness!!

and they are using fidelio cum opera..... ALL ALONG I TOT THEY ONLY USE FIDELIO!! luckily i used opera before, if not i will need to take some time to learn opera again.. whohohohoh


gues wat. i met amanda and patricia there!!! one went there as sales coordinator, the other one as revenue executive!! its so happy knowing the both of them are working there as well.. both of them were from pan pacific and seriously i think its fated that i meet patricia there... i think i have got an affinity with her!! really lor! thats wat she claimed as welll....


shaltnt talk to much, i am dead tired. after buying pepper's food and tidbits, i offically delcared bankrupt fer this month! my room's automatic fan..... here i come!


while doing nothing at operator decided to camwhore abit. lol


hee dun have full length foto cos i m juz too tired to upload!! tmr la. and biao's taggie game, tmr la k! hahaha

oyasumi nasai!!

its juz tat ironic, we bumped into each other at the place where he hit me like fuck! i went into train, there was this teenager from catholic high sch, whose backview look exactly like him. the pattern of his hair, bla bla bla.

freaking hell its juz tat ironic!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

in another 8 hrs or so, i will be starting work at my new workplace.......

having mixed feelings rite now, kinda look forward to it, but yet, abit intimidated by the rumours of how my future colleagues are like...

MAY WHICHEVER GOD BE WIT MI..........


meeeting joreen fer breakfast tmr before working, well, a full stomach will means a good start fer the day! "yea, a slpy start as well."


went ktv. movies. window shopping these 2 days. sort of utilise my weekend as i m not sure when will i get to enjoy weekends once i start work.....


stress stress stress// so stress that last nite idreamt of working at mm, den i calculated the +++ as 1.1655 but the ppl there told mi its, 1.01655................ gosh!!!!!


yea mr gby i know that ive been tagged. will update tat weird things abt me once im home tmr... hahahaha


yawnzzzz tired but cant slp..... wats new fer someone who will be starting work in less than 12 hrs time......


fingers toes crossed!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

went over to pretty laopo's blog and saw her post regarding long island tea.

she recalled that time yk puked at zx's hse when all of us went drinking.... so nice....... and i was wayang-ing all the while. well..... and laopo, tat time i tot u lie on bed said u dunn wanna drink anymore???!! lolxxx so funny! eh i stil hav all the video clips tat bro send mi knoe!!!!! hiak hiak hiak.

blackmail!!

and i was luffing at her post of crawling from her bathroom to her bedroom after puking in the toilet bowl.

it was so funny!!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

at last, its been a whole 3 months and 1 day that we've been together.

its considered a short period fer me.

but tell me.

only 3 mths n we are having so many probs.

how many more 3 mths can we walk hand in hand together?

beats me. i myself are crossing my fingers n toes and which ever part of my body that can be cross.

and since last mth, he has not been wishing me happy anniversary. sigh guys..

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

some encouraging words tat brighten up my cloudy day.........

Bvlack says:
dun be always so sad...you should have gone through enough shit to tackle this small problem

Bvlack says:
i like to read your blog because it so YOU!... i can really see you change although i dun physically see you or talk to you... you thoughts and actions...how you perceive things and such.... Pls dun do it like XXXXX's blog....full of crap....

Bvlack says:
' you are beautiful...no matter what they say...'




Meaningful quotes of the day!!!

LinG-http://fairytalesland.blogspot.com/ ~lalala just LoVe my BLOG!! says:
wat woman really wan a GOOD husband lor

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life's aint tat bad though. i have got good n nice caring frens here fer me!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

now i finally understand everything. but well..... helpless. its been so long since i last felt tis way.

enuff said abt everything. im juz freaking tired! freaking disappointed!

anyway listen to the background music that im playing now. since that time i first heard of this song, i fell in love with it. be it its piano intro, or the background or the lyrics i love it to core.

and juz last nite,at last, i know y i love "er mo zai sheng bian" (Devil Beside You) tat taiwan drama series so much.

so the songs, brought back wonderful memories...... tat certain period of time, which i enjoyed my life to the max, doing things i love to do most *KTV-ing*, surrounding by a grp of pals, which consists of sisters, laogong n laopo, bros, buddies, and bla bla bla.

those who hav been thru tat period of time with me will knoe wat im referring to.

after being so down fer the past few days, at least i have smth to reminicise on when i watch devil beside u. at least my life aint tat bad. i stil have those times to fall back on when i feel tired and wan to shut myself to the outside world.

i seriously thank whoever up there fer the crazy times, fun times, memorable times tat happened at tat period of time. and i mean it. i m really thankful fer all those times.

although at some point of time, i do hope time will reverse back to den. no scars back den, no unhappiness and i juz lived everyday happily. and bro once told me, he hoped tat he oso hope time will turn back...

but c'mon! face it! wake up!!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

after last nite's ordeal, i was waiting for his sms or call, to either pacify me or apologise.

so after much long long long wait, he finally sms-ed me at 10plus pm. so cool! he finally remembered there is a chow kaili in singapore after more than 12 hrs. acting as though nothing, he questioned me y did i not sms him the whole day. wat a nice way to break the ice.

so i went up msn, expecting him to give me an explanation regarding lastnite. all he said was, he said all tat in a fit of anger and tat he din even did wat he said he have done. he said all that juz to annoy me.

so cool! since he knew tat he had angered me last nite, he can actualy go slp without a single call. until the nex day 10 plus! wow!!

in between, i was imagining things and to the extent that i went to my preggy cat and weep there fer hrs! hey tats in the public okie! lucky not much people pass thru there so no one send mi to the hospital for the mental. sounds so stupid aint it? well, wat can i say but to blame on my foolishness?!

so while i was weeping, i was hoping him to call and at least tell mi that he dun mean it.! oh! i guess tat scene will only happen in taiwan drama series! sorry! i watched too much of it recently while im at home! oopsy! back to reality ms chow kaili.

he kinda said that he dun wan his guy frens to know that he've gotten a gf. hmm new age thinking which i cant figure out y! well, age or generation gap i guess.

but erm, i think most prob that i m too ugly or not up to his standard that if his frens see me, they will probably go... "eeeee, tat one is his gf ah?! eh abit canot make it lehx~!" so erm, well suck thumb. ms chow, who ask u to be so ugly, if u are those gals with big eyes, big dimples, long hair and those pretty face, he wudnt have said that la!

wahahhahahaha so erm. he said abt me not picking up fone when i am with my frens be it clubbing or drinking. well. fer this i knoe its my fault and i did promise to him that i'll make sure i'll keep my fone by my side nex time so that he can contact me easily.

so he said, we shall see... hmmm..... time tells.

after much heated exchanging of words, he said, i dun wish to quarrel with u... i go slp. bye.
*poof* offline he went.

ehhhh................. not even a sorry for last nite's incident. hmm i even hinted him knoe, like"so wat u gotta say abt last nite?" so erm.... he choose to either act blur, act din see, or he's juz too busy to notice my sentence existance as well.

so erm... other than i will do my best to honour my promise, i really mean it! duh! dun doubt me.

basically, my tears shed fer last nite are juz in vain la. who appreciate? no one? i think preggy cat oso find mi irritating lor.! wahahahahha anyway tears are free, if not i wud hav gone bankrupt, paying solely for the tears i wasted last nite! omg!

so cool!!!! its sunshine after the rain!!! WOW! plus rainbow!!!!!!!

*beats me but it hurts to type the above entry*

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

y izzit that tis is my blog but yet i have reservations abt pouring everything out?

bloggie, aint u someone i can tell everything to? even without answers or responses.

most of the time truth hurts. thats why everytime even when i know whats going on, i will pretend. i will act blur. i will act ignorant. i knoe as long as i dun seem to be bothered by it, ppl wun know that i am actually tat bothered by it.

it sucks to act non chalant.

it tiring too. to coop everything inside oneself. without any clarification nor explanation.

well. i hate clarification n explanation cos theres always a possibility to hear things i dun expect to hear or rather, i dun wish to hear. hence, i keep everything to myself, or maybe talk to my closest fren whom i knoe they will empathise wit me, know what i am thinking. well, isnt this wat gals wan? to have someone to understand their feelings? and to hear them talking n talking non stop?!

thats y. ppl say everything out, in hope that a good explanation is given. but not me.

im intimidated by the fact that what if tat explanation is not sth wat i wan to hear. thus, i rather shut myself up.

anyway im disappointed in what he ans me juz now.

viola, thats the answer i knoe i will get if i confront him, hence its been inside mi all along.

though tat is something minor, but i actually got quite bothered by it. the fact that i have already changed mine, i confronted him, but yet he gave one thousand and one excuses to push it away.

like wat he said, mian qiang shi mei you xin fu de (there aint happiness to force someone to do things he dun wish to), i apologised if im being too pushy abt that issue.

i have already forced him to change his nick while playing game which up til now im stil feeling super uneasy abt it. cos ultimately, its not him who wan to change, its cos i made a big fuss outta it, he've got no choice but to change.. im sorry fer tis as well k.



im someone who juz dun deserved good treatments from my other half. suck thumb and live with it ya??!

man, wats tis feeling in me?? its not disappointment. its resignation to fate.

fatty cat... its time to find u again soulmate.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?


last nite while taking pepper out fer walk.


nothing interesting happened other than meeting up wit sis.! haa its nice to have someone to listen to my rants and complaints and sadness. recently got tis prob which i think sis can really understand how i feel.

joreen sms-ed mi today, saying before we can work over at front desk, need to orientate ourselves to various depts in the hotel, like the reservation, concierge, tel op, bla bla bla. yawnz and i almost forgotten abt tis part. as 7 mths ago when i joined GPP, i din have to orientate myself. but tat time over at pan pac, i did the same thing too. its good as we get to know our colleagues from various depts so it makes work easier for me when i finally start work at front desk.

i rather look forward to my new job, with bits of worries if the ppl there will be nice or not. its notorious for bitchy ppl. YAWNX!

but den again. red colour cheongsam.... sighhhhhhh!! i dislike red! other colours pls??!

sidenote: im sorry. i knoe u cared for me. im really sorry to disappoint you. dun be angry with mi anymore. sorry.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

i m craving for steamboat

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

went mahjong at van's place last nite together with bro and uncle jackson! and of cos, i brought pepper there to play with van's 2 silky terriers, dou dou n boy boy

I WON 15 BUCKS OKIE!! *now who says i'm lousy at mahjong?!* but erm, van did not pay me as i stil owe her money for pepper's grooming.. hahahaha

there's tis incident over at her hse last nite that makes mi luff my ass off until now.

a cockroach flew into her hse via her window. so the scarey cat me saw it cat-walking under the mahjong table across my chair and i screamed :"COCKROACHHHH AHHH!"

van.... :immediately jumped onto the chair! Ahhhhhhhhh!

so erm, 2 ladies 2 chairs eyeing on the cockroach, fearing it will get near us.

bro said: okok. i try to catch it. so he took a tissue, and started to chase the cockroach.

*in the meantime, uncle jackson's sitiing there watching the 3 of us clowning....* nabei

and bro chased n chased until the cockroach was being cornered, and here comes the main character of the day.. P E P P E R~~

PEPPER ACTUALLY GO SNIFFED AT THE COCKROACH!! i got the super huge shock of my life and immediately dashed down the chair and grabbed pepper!

upon seeing this, van grabbed her boy boy n dou dou.

AND AT THIS POINT OF TIME, tat stupid cockroach actually decided to tell us that its actually a female and flew across the livingroom, right behind me!!

so i SHRIEKED, SCREAMED, AND WATEVER NOT, and ran around the living room with pepper in my arms. *poor pepper muz be thinking, ive got a mad woman as an owner!"

and the funniest part, van ran behind me, screaming away as well, and yup! with dou dou n boy boy both in her arms as well.!! wahahahahahahah bth!!

and at tis moment.. bro gave up : i scare flying cockroaches lehx! i cant i cant !

so the sitting-and-watching-us-clowning uncle jackson volunteered. whilst me and van were back onto our chairs with the dogs.

after several attempts, uncle jackson: heehee i cant. i duno how to catch! *he's scare of the flying cockroach oso*

lastly we hav got no choice but to wake up van's dad to assist us with the sacred task!

lol. one hit from him, and tat cockroach laid flat on the floor! H E R O!!!!

well, tat concludes the flying cockroach adventure... wahahhaha


and for today, uncle jackson made mi cried!! i shalt elaborate on the details but wat i can say was... he super insensitive lor!!!! sighhhhhh~ lucky hes remorseful (or maybe he tried to be remorseful) and treated me to pasta mania. we watched spiddyman 3 and within half n hr of the show, i was weeping! -_-. tat scene on how the aunt told spiddyman abt how the uncle proposed to her.... AWWW.. ITS SO TOUCHING, yet sad!! *sniff sniff*

anyway its a good show to watch. hardly understand y thomas said its not nice. hahaha to each of its own i guess. lolx.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

these few days while im free and start to chat wit my frens, i think thru them i start to know myself better...

1) Thomas - he says that i like to act strong. (tis super true! i dun shed a single tears no matter how sad i m, in front of my parents!)
2) Kel - he says that i have super low confidence of myself which he dun understand y
3) Na (thru sms) - she says that i love to think alot (but hey, 90% of my so called hallucination actually proven right okie?!)

erm.. i think im starting to understand myself. im juz a pessimist. wahahahahha =X

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

thank you mr monti (i cant bring myself to call u ray!) for the gift! i like it!! (well, who dont??!!) wahhahhaha and ur letter............. almost burst into tears when i read it.............

to the red wine lover and lamb meat eater in PPC:

Yo Ray! thank you very very much for everything.!! and its my pleasure knowing u. from a normal guest, to someone i reckon as a regular, and till now, someone whom i can say that he's my fren........... thanks for everything! thanks for hearing me complaining about how sucky tat shortie gsm was!

and esp giving me the nick of lucy which irene, joanne n aza almost laughed their asses off when they came to know abt it! haaha thanks! its nice to have such fond memories!!

well.. all the best and hope you will continue reading my nothing-but-rants-and-vulgarities blog. hahahahahaha

Love
Lucy
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alrite... went to na's workplace last nite after dinner at vivocity with irene, joanne n aza. enjoyed myself and i din drink much! wohohohoho its sort of a break through for me! i drink only half a glass of whisky with green tea. okie??!! lolx

almost 1 week left for me to enjoy my break befor starting work. man! i have yet to go for my medical checkup at paragon!! wat??! medical checkup at paragon, i think thats the most high class medical checkup i have ever gone to! hahha

so..... in order to fit nicely into that red colour cheongsam 1 week later, i gotta curb my appetite!! omg!!!!

and i heard juan telling me that spiderman 3 is nice!! i wan to watchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

and yup i stayed at home the whole day...... and the outcome..........

SPREE N SPREE N SPREE

few days ago. my drugstore spree.

burt's bee lip balm. *highly recommended for ferever chapped lips*


max factor mascara. its under shiseido and i do heard alot of raves abt this. we shall see...


and today
my levis spree


Levis 503 skinny jeans
hehe less than 50 bucks! lalalalala


La Senza Bra
less than 20 bucks!


and conclusion is...... staying at home is higly damaging to my bank acc. unclejackson i wanna go ur hse laaaa~~!! lol


and oh ya, today, 2 gals and 1 little boy brought their dogs and come my hse playwith pepper.
i duno them but they heard recently got dog bark ard my hse here, so wanna come c c.
1 male silky terrier which keep disturbing pepper
1 female schnauzer which i think she will be my daughter-in-law soon
and 1 mixed breed like a little furball.




and the whole day, i hav been catching tis taiwan drama feat jimmy lin*roxxx!* and a korean actress! its call... my lucky star... 放羊的星星


can u imagine he's like 33 yrs old?! omg...... i love him max. i stil can remember sec 1 after art exam, mi n elaine went suntec juz to catch a glimpse of him!!

actually i spent a fruitful day at home la... hahahaha

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

so... the long awaited picssss

lets put our hands together and welcome pics for the farewell party for ms woodlands, ms commonwealth and ms tanglin halt on 30 April 2007....


grp fotos!! they made my stay at GPP a memorable, fun and unforgettable one!!


the gals.... joanne leeeeeee was at home doing spring cleaning.... lol


the guys............



irene said that he's cool n cute. too bad she din c his look when he slipped at hot kitchen! i luffed my ass off! hahahaha ah chingggggg the coolest cook in GPP !


ah how and harry
i always wonder howcome harry;s wallet is forever soo thick filled with 50 dollars notes!! -_-"


left: edwin who speaks no english
centre: stupid ah gan!
right: thomas.. always wiping my tears away whenever i cried when i got drunk.

so noww.....
i present the main character of theday, edwin loh's shades


zoon have got a glaring sun


not only the sun's glaring, jesstoh's a mafia!!


well, for tis pic, present to u the cutest not least fierce mini mafia =X *scorching hot sun laa*

and the crazy times


while on the fone with uncle jackson, decided to do stunts


whenever jesstoh's drunk or high, she will goes....................


tis pic is highly used by irene n aza. focusing not them, but my fake nails. lolx

well, theres stil some pics *obscene* which i decided not to post up cos i scare wait uncle jackson ki siao again! =X lolx.

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

ann sms-ed me just now. asking about my pig trotters and me spouting nonsenses while i was drunk tat night. sigh.. how i miss her dirty yellow jokes! -_-" irene teo, i know its u who told ann that i fell down the drain right!! u piece of shit!!

sigh how i miss the hotel. waking up in the day, slacking at uncle jackson's hse, its so not me when i wake up and not going to work. i miss GPP. i miss PPC. i miss MR RAYMOND MONTI!!

P.S: mr monti, will u stil be reading my blog when im gone??!! worst still, will u remember me?? sighhh!! and MARK! i haven got the chance to take picture with you.!!! sighHH!! wait for me k!!!
and mr de la motte, i said that when u check in on the 28th, i'll be there, but thanks to my swollen pig trotter.. i cant take picture with u.....

LOUD SIGHHHHH HOW I MISSED THE DAYS! sigh sigh sigh. it seems like once i checked out of GPP, all i do is to sigh sigh sigh n sigh.... SIGH!

well, like wat mr denyer said, i gotta look forward and dun look back.!!! HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!


asp uncle jackson who is sitting beside me right now, he wants me to write things like "he is a good guy n ive got a good catch!"

see how thick skinned n spastic tat fellow is!

If nothing last forever, can I be your nothing?

last nite was fun, though the after effect was disastrous

went clarke quay zoon with jess, aza, irene, joanne, edwin loh, edwin(hot kitchen), thomas, harry, ah how, edmund, ching and gan (did i left anyone out?)

a farewell party for mi irene n joanne though tat stupid joanne reach ard 12.30 and went back shortly after tat! -_-""

while waiting for the rest to join us after work, me jess aza irene ching n ah how started to play 5 10. using both hands. so adds up to total of 60! =X lolx its supercrazy.

wats more insane was, when the song "Wo Ke Yi" started to reach the chorus part, every one of us stop our 5 10 game and sang along.. afterthe chorus passed, we resumed our game, and started to sing the chorus again when it reached. its so totally funny as we seemed so high playing the game and singing along the way. lolx.

and imagine the main kitchen coolest cook ah ching actually knoe tat song and knoe howto sing! lol

took alot of crazy pics too. ah gan n edwin out to get me drunk. after barrels of beer, ah gan ordered 2 teq shots for me, when i proved that i can hold my liquor better than expected, he brought me a lambourgini *spelling correct?!* its my first time drinking that! OMG THE EFFECT IS WHOOOOO WOOOOW OOOHHH!! lolx. and stil i was standing strong. but slowly, i started to feel abit high...

and after knowing uncle jackson is waiting for me at his hse, thomas keep dragging me home. lolx. and asp irene n thomas, i started to crap abt thing like "I DUN WANNA LEAVE GRAND PLAZA! I DUN WANNA GO MERITUS MANDARIN" tis kind of nonsense and started to cry from clarke quay all the way to hougang.

so funny as when irene heard me saying all that, she actually felt emo too! =X and the weirdest thing is i actually dun remember saying such things =X hahaha


so the most disastrous thing was, uncle jackson's waiting fer me after his soccer game, and i told him i onlydrank abit. so he was super mad at me but i assumed that he sees no point in getting angry with a drunked asshole, he reserver all his vulgarities and temper until the nex morning.

and psst *he actually checked my fone for the pics at zoon when i got knnocked out totally in bedd!*

lol so erm.. i got it jialat jialat today lor. had a super wooper duper hard time pacifying him and cooling him down. after kena super alot of @%#$%^&@#$%^!@#$% from him. at last the dark cloud's cleared and rays of sunlight coming in.

so erm, asp my promise, no more hugging or kissing orwatever stunts with the guys when i m high. no more drinking til so high w/o uncle jackson ard. and no smoking w/o him ard as well.

i dun dare le.. after seeingg him shouting n flaring up, i super scared!! WO BU GAN LE! DUI BU QI LA!

anyway, tats all fer now. will post up pics when i reach home cos now at uncle jackson's hse.

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